Saturday, September 17, 2011

I CAN do this!!!!


~Before I start, I just wanted to let you know that I should be tackling some of my tons of homework right now , but I felt it more important to document this! Hope you enjoy!

College so far has been so overwhelming! There have been days that I just want to throw in to towel and give up forever. And I am not exaggerating on this one, there have been days that I have to talk myself out of crying while walking to my next class.

One of these days happens to be last Monday. Mondays are really long for me. I have class from 8 o’clock till 3 o’clock, and one of my classes is my Chem Lab where I stand for three hours doing experiments. Anyway, I had a bad day in my Biology class, mostly because I felt that I didn’t understand what the professor was saying. It’s almost like her brain moves faster than her mouth.  I was really discouraged, but trying to be positive by reciting Philippians 4:13, “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” And I’m sure that I heard a great song on Joy FM during my drive home, I can’t remember at the moment though. I just know I was really down about the class and about college in general and thinking that maybe I had made the wrong choice.

After coming home and working on some homework, and cooking dinner, I decided to push my homework off and go to church for Intercessory Prayer. As we were praying, I don’t remember exactly what was said, but I think it was some thing about our ears being shut to the devil’s lies. That really spoke to my spirit. Suddenly it all made sense. I was letting the devil whisper to me that I wasn’t good enough for this, and that I couldn’t do this, and that I should just give up. Right then and there I decided that enough was enough and that the devil was no longer allowed to tell me these things! I have surrounded myself with Christian music, I started my Bible reading again (I had slacked off during the summer), and I focus on the positive!

I can’t, I’m not good enough, and I should give up are a thing of the past!

With Christ, I CAN, I AM good enough, and I WON’T give up!

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Mass of the Holy Spirit???



Thursday was the Mass of the Holy Spirit at SLU. I figured it was a pretty important thing considering that they cancelled all classes for it. I wasn’t going to go until I told Pastor Lindy on Monday night and he encouraged me to go and see what it was all about.

Since I have grown up in an A/G Church my whole life I know a lot about the Holy Spirit. So, when I read that we were having a Mass of the Holy Spirit, I was like, “Okay, Holy Spirit, why not?” Little did I know, Mass of the Holy Spirit is actually a mass. (Note to self when attending events at SLU: anything with the word mass, is probably mass…)

I had never attended a mass before so I was very confused. Once I realized I was in mass, I wanted to leave, but figured it would be rude to get up in the middle and leave. I know I would be offended if someone got up and left from a special service at my church.

Anyway, the Catholics have all of these cues of when they speak and stuff, which kinda freaked me out, not gonna lie. I tried hard to stand and sit when I was supposed to, even though I had no clue when to or why…

And then the priest or maybe it’s the father, got up and blessed some water in a bowl making it holy water. That was weird, but then he walked around the room and sprinkled us with it (which was even weirder) and the people all around me did that weird cross thing across their chest. Me, I was thinking, “Why in the world did you just sprinkle me with water? I know I walked across campus today, but I did have a shower already this morning, and it’s rude not to give me a towel to dry off with…” I wasn’t sure if it was rude wipe the water off my face and arm, so I just let it air dry. It took every thing in me not to wipe it off.

They sang some more songs and said the Lord’s Prayer while holding hands, which I thought was odd, but whatever.

They also read scripture from the bible. I thought they did a good job with that though. They read about the Tower of Babel, Acts 2, and something from Luke. I was impressed with the reading of Acts 2.

And finally we got to communion. Someone announced to the audience that if you weren’t catholic you could still come up for a blessing, just not take the emblems, and you had to cross your arms over your chest like they make you do when going down a waterslide. I decided it wasn’t worth the walk up to receive blessing if I couldn’t take the emblems, so I stayed in my seat. I was very disappointed with communion. First off, they all drink from the same cup, which is disgusting! And Secondly, they don’t read the scripture together and you can’t snap your little Styrofoam wafer thing when it says, “He took the bread and broke it.” They just walk up in a line and eat the bread and drink the wine. I should have told them they were doing it all wrong and showed them how its done7…

Finally, there was another song and maybe a blessing, I can’t remember, I zoned out about halfway through…

Let me just say that I was extremely happy this morning when I got to worship the way I wanted to and take communion without any question. I also was super happy to snap my wafer in half at the allotted time. (I don’t know why that makes me so happy, but it does ;) )

In closing, it will probably be too soon if I ever have to attend another mass, it’s just not my thing, LOL!

Friday, September 2, 2011

1st Week = COMPLETE!



My first week of college has been quite interesting. It has been filled with lots of homework and walking. Here’s a synopsis of what went on:

Monday:
  • ·      I realized that 10 minutes between my classes might not be enough, especially once it gets cold and icy…
  • ·      I spent about eight hours on campus, seven of which were in classes, and three of which were spent standing because the people at SLU weren’t nice enough to give the Chem Lab rooms stools/chairs. (Personally, I think I am paying enough in tuition to deserve a chair.)
  • ·      I decided that I don’t particularly like my Chem Lecture of roughly 300 people.
  • ·     After I got home, I cooked dinner, went to church, and then crashed.

Tuesday:
  • ·      I got a nice break from my one day of class and worked all day.
  • ·      Oh, and my legs hurt from all the walking I did on Monday. (My body was so not ready for that…)

Wednesday:
  • ·      I spent four hours in class.
  • ·      I walked around the SLU Fair for like 5 minutes, decided there were too many people, and then left.
  • ·      I went to the Galleria and chilled for a while (3 hours).
  • ·      While at the Galleria I attended a One-to-One session at the Apple Store to try to figure out why my PDF files wouldn’t open. Conclusion: Apparently Adobe hasn’t updated their software for Lion. At least that’s what the guy told me. Oh, and by the way, it now works…
  • ·      I went back to campus and got lunch at Chick-fil-a. (This is not your normal Chick-fil-a either, it’s an express, which basically means the food is already prepared and sitting under heat lamps… ewww)
  • ·      I attended a Sexual Assault Seminar, which basically told me to expect respect. I already knew that. Thanks for wasting my time that I could have been working…
  • ·      Then I headed to church even though I was really tired and had lots of homework. I was not going to let satan keep me from church!

Thursday:
  • ·      I attended my two classes for the day. My Bio Lab got out two and a half hours early, so I caught up on some reading.
  • ·      I unintentionally attended a Mass… (There will be a blog about that one later…)
  • ·      I went to work for two hours
  • ·      I came home and made dinner.
  • ·      I did my homework and then crashed.


Friday:
  • ·      I attended my four hours of class
  • ·      I went to work.
  • ·      I went home and then left to watch Soul Surfer with some awesome people!
  • ·      And now I am writing this blog about to crash.


There are also a few things I learned during my commute:
  • ·      If I leave my house at 6:30, I avoid most of the traffic on 170 & 64.
  • ·      Other drivers really don’t like it when you drive the speed limit, especially in the left hand lane…
  • ·      Even if you drive above the speed limit, people will still pass you.
  • ·      Even though the bridge at the Grand Exit is gone, I still check to make sure there are no cars coming. Who knows, there could be a Back to the Future moment or something…


I want to say thank you to all of my Family and Friends who have been praying for me this week, and to Air 1 and Joy FM for keeping me sane during my commute! Muchas Gracias!

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

And the Next Chapter Begins...



In one week, I will be starting college. College brings on a whole lot of change. It kinda feels like my world is being turned upside down. If you know me at all, you know I do not like change, at all! In just the past week, a lot has changed. Three of my friends moved into their dorms, two of them in St. Charles, and the other in Kirksville. Going from seeing my friend’s everyday, to maybe once a week is rough, and I am not liking it! As for my friend who went to Kirksville, will that is the hardest of all. Just knowing that I won’t get to see her for two or three months makes me really sad because we grew really close in the past year.

Another change that I already know I am not going to like is the traffic that I will be siting in everyday. I am impatient and I know that I am going to have a long commute to school.  I am not looking forward to it at all!

College is confusing as well. I go from this class in this building, to that class in that building, but only on this day. What????? College is so much bigger than high school, and I thought I attended a pretty big one. And they say high school is supposed to prepare you for college… well, they were wrong. High school is one building; College is lots of buildings spread across an entire campus. Oh and trying to decide on a major, well that’s a whole different story. You are telling me that I have to decide what I want to do in life and take corresponding classes? Who do you think I am?

In the midst of all of this change and chaos, I will be clinging to this verse:
 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” ~Jeremiah 29:11

I know that my God knows what He is doing, and my path is already laid out for me! He has carefully planned out my whole life with my best interest in mind. I just have to make sure I am seeking Him and listening to what He tells me to do. He holds all of the answers.

I know that through everything that is going on, God still holds my life in His hands and I have absolutely nothing to worry about.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Truly Blessed

So, last night I was thinking about my life and how blessed I really am. I have so much and I take it for granted most of the time. Here is what crossed my mind last night as I was thinking about how blessed I am:
  • I have a great family that I wouldn’t trade for the world!
Sure, we have our ups and downs and we may not be the perfect picture of the “American Dream” but we love each other and thats all that really matters!
  • I have an amazing group of friends!
Oh my goodness! I have the best friends a girl could ask for! They always know how to make me laugh and always have great advice when I need it! 
“My girls”, Sam, Angie, Jessica, Alaina, and Jessica, they always keep my on my toes! I never know what is going to happen next!
And, then there’s Miss Sarah Elizabeth Dodge. We have been friends since I was born, no joke! This girl keeps me sane! I go to her with anything I have on my plate and vice versa. Sometimes I just need to talk to get my mind off things. Other times I need her to say a quick prayer for me or whatever is going on at the time. You know it’s really bad when one of us tells the other that we need to move to Mexico, live in a hut, and make baskets. I know for a fact that anytime we start a conversation like this, either one or both of us will leave with a better outlook on whatever the situation is. I love this girl to death and could not live without her!!
  • I have an amazing church and an even better church family!
Let me tell you, I could not live without going to church. I just love it. I think part of the reason I love it so much is because of my church family. I love being able to fellowship with other people who love Jesus just as much as I do!
Within my church family there is my Youth Group. There isn’t much to say about them other than just wow. Most of the time I sit with my hand over my eyes shaking my head, but I love them anyway! 
  • I have a job that I love!
Everyone tells me that I have a cushy job. And, yes, yes I do, I’ll admit it. I sit in an office for four hours a day and do typical office stuff. I would say out of the majority of teens today, I have one of the best jobs. That is unless you like the fast food industry...
  • I am able to pursue a college education!
Attending college is a big deal in today’s society. Me being able to go to a very prestigious and expensive school for about as much as a state school would cost is such a blessing for me!
After realizing all that I have, my heart breaks for those who don’t have what I have. There are so many people out there that don’t have a family, or friends, or a job, or a church, or a relationship with Jesus, or maybe they can’t have a relationship with Jesus because of where they live. I have so much and yet I still want more. I think it’s time for me to sit back and enjoy what I have been blessed with and work to help others more!

Sunday, July 31, 2011

"Don't Leave it on the Desk"

I recently read received an email entitled “Don’t Leave it on the Desk”. It really touched my heart and I thought I would share it with ya’ll!
There was a certain Professor of Religion named Dr. Christianson, a studious man who taught at a small college in the western United States .

Dr. Christianson taught the required survey course in Christianity at this particular institution. Every student was required to take this course their freshman year, regardless of his or her major.

Although Dr. Christianson tried hard to communicate the essence of the gospel in his class, he found that most of his students looked upon the course as nothing but required drudgery. Despite his best efforts, most students refused to take Christianity seriously.

This year, Dr. Christianson had a special student named Steve. Steve was only a freshman, but was studying with the intent of going onto seminary for the ministry. Steve was popular, he was well liked, and he was an imposing physical specimen. He was now the starting center on the school football team, and was the best student in the professor's class.

One day, Dr. Christianson asked Steve to stay after class so he could talk with him.

"How many push-ups can you do?"

Steve said, "I do about 200 every night."

"200? That's pretty good, Steve," Dr. Christianson said. "Do you think you could do 300?"

Steve replied, "I don't know.... I've never done 300 at a time"

"Do you think you could?" again asked Dr. Christianson.

"Well, I can try," said Steve.

"Can you do 300 in sets of 10? I have a class project in mind and I need you to do about 300 push-ups in sets of ten for this to work. Can you do it? I need you to tell me you can do it," said the professor.

Steve said, "Well... I think I can...yeah, I can do it."

Dr. Christianson said, "Good! I need you to do this on Friday.. Let me explain what I have in mind."

Friday came and Steve got to class early and sat in the front of the room. When class started, the professor pulled out a big box of donuts. No, these weren't the normal kinds of donuts, they were the extra fancy BIG kind, with cream centers and frosting swirls. Everyone was pretty excited it was Friday, the last class of the day, and they were going to get an early start on the weekend with a party in Dr. Christianson's class.

Dr. Christianson went to the first girl in the first row and asked, "Cynthia, do you want to have one of these donuts?"

Cynthia said, "Yes."

Dr. Christianson then turned to Steve and asked, "Steve, would you do ten push-ups so that Cynthia can have a donut?"

"Sure!" Steve jumped down from his desk to do a quick ten. Then Steve again sat in his desk. Dr. Christianson put a donut on Cynthia's desk.

Dr. Christianson then went to Joe, the next person, and asked, "Joe, do you want a donut?"

Joe said, "Yes." Dr. Christianson asked, "Steve would you do ten push-ups so Joe can have a donut?"

Steve did ten push-ups, Joe got a donut. And so it went, down the first aisle, Steve did ten push-ups for every person before they got their donut.

Walking down the second aisle, Dr. Christianson came to Scott. Scott was on the basketball team, and in as good condition as Steve. He was very popular and never lacking for female companionship..

When the professor asked, "Scott do you want a donut?"

Scott's reply was, "Well, can I do my own push-ups?"

Dr. Christianson said, "No, Steve has to do them."

Then Scott said, "Well, I don't want one then."

Dr... Christianson shrugged and then turned to Steve and asked, "Steve, would you do ten push-ups so Scott can have a donut he doesn't want?"

With perfect obedience Steve started to do ten push-ups.

Scott said, "HEY! I said I didn't want one!"

Dr.. Christianson said, "Look! This is my classroom, my class, my desks, and these are my donuts. Just leave it on the desk if you don't want it." And he put a donut on Scott's desk.

Now by this time, Steve had begun to slow down a little. He just stayed on the floor between sets because it took too much effort to be getting up and down. You could start to see a little perspiration coming out around his brow.

Dr. Christianson started down the third row. Now the students were beginning to get a little angry. Dr.. Christianson asked Jenny, "Jenny, do you want a donut?"

Sternly, Jenny said, "No."

Then Dr. Christianson asked Steve, "Steve, would you do ten more push-ups so Jenny can have a donut that she doesn't want?"

Steve did ten....Jenny got a donut.

By now, a growing sense of uneasiness filled the room. The students were beginning to say, "No!" and there were all these uneaten donuts on the desks..

Steve also had to really put forth a lot of extra effort to get these push-ups done for each donut. There began to be a small pool of sweat on the floor beneath his face, his arms and brow were beginning to get red because of the physical effort involved.

Dr. Christianson asked Robert, who was the most vocal unbeliever in the class, to watch Steve do each push up to make sure he did the full ten push-ups in a set because he couldn't bear to watch all of Steve's work for all of those uneaten donuts. He sent Robert over to where Steve was so Robert count the set and watch Steve closely.

Dr. Christianson started down the fourth row.. During his class, however, some students from other classes had wandered in and sat down on the steps along the radiators that ran down the sides of the room. When the professor realized this, he did a quick count and saw that now there were 34 students in the room. He started to worry if Steve would be able to make it.

Dr. Christianson went on to the next person and the next and the next. Near the end of that row, Steve was really having a rough time. He was taking a lot more time to complete each set.

Steve asked Dr. Christianson, "Do I have to make my nose touch on each one?"

Dr. Christianson thought for a moment, "Well, they're your push-ups. You are in charge now. You can do them any way that you want." And Dr. Christianson went on.

A few moments later, Jason, a recent transfer student, came to the room and was about tocome in when all the students yelled in one voice, "NO! Don't come in! Stay out!"

Jason didn't know what was going on. Steve picked up his head and said, "No, let him come."

Professor Christianson said, "You realize that if Jason comes in you will have to do ten push-ups for him?"

Steve said, "Yes, let him come in. Give him a donut."

Dr. Christianson said, "Okay, Steve, I'll let you get Jason's out of the way right now. Jason, do you want a donut?"

Jason, new to the room, hardly knew what was going on. "Yes," he said, "give me a donut."

"Steve, will you do ten push-ups so that Jason can have a donut?"

Steve did ten push-ups very slowly and with great effort. Jason, bewildered, was handed a donut and sat down.

Dr Christianson finished the fourth row, and then started on those visitors seated by the heaters. Steve's arms were now shaking with each push-up in a struggle to lift himself against the force of gravity. By this time sweat was profusely dropping off of his face, there was no sound except his heavy breathing; there was not a dry eye in the room..

The very last two students in the room were two young women, both cheerleaders, and very popular. Dr. Christianson went to Linda, the second to last, and asked, "Linda, do you want a doughnut?"

Linda said, very sadly, "No, thank you."

Professor Christianson quietly asked, "Steve, would you do ten push-ups so that Linda can have a donut she doesn't want?"

Grunting from the effort, Steve did ten very slow push-ups for Linda.

Then Dr. Christianson turned to the last girl, Susan. "Susan, do you want a donut?"

Susan, with tears flowing down her face, began to cry. "Dr. Christianson, why can't I help him?"

Dr Christianson, with tears of his own, said, "No, Steve has to do it alone; I have given him this task and he is in charge of seeing that everyone has an opportunity for a donut whether they want it or not.. When I decided to have a party this last day of class, I looked at my grade book. Steve here is the only student with a perfect grade. Everyone else has failed a test, skipped class, or offered me inferior work. Steve told me that in football practice, when a player messes up he must do push-ups. I told Steve that none of you could come to my party unless he paid the price by doing your push-ups. He and I made a deal for your sakes."

"Steve, would you do ten push-ups so Susan can have a donut?"

As Steve very slowly finished his last push-up, with the understanding that he had accomplished all that was required of him, having done 350 push-ups, his arms buckled beneath him and he fell to the floor.

Dr. Christianson turned to the room and said, "And so it was, that our Savior, Jesus Christ, on the cross, plead to the Father, 'Into thy hands I commend my spirit.' With the understanding that He had done everything that was required of Him, He yielded up His life. And like some of those in this room, many of us leave the gift on the desk, uneaten. "

Two students helped Steve up off the floor and to a seat, physically exhausted, but wearing a thin smile.

"Well done, good and faithful servant," said the professor, adding, "Not all sermons are preached in words."

Turning to his class, the professor said, "My wish is that you might understand and fully comprehend all the riches of grace and mercy that have been given to you through the sacrifice of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He spared not His Only Begotten Son, but gave Him up for us all, for the whole Church, now and forever. Whether or not we choose to accept His gift to us, the price has been paid."

"Wouldn't you be foolish and ungrateful to leave it lying on the desk?" 
So, are you going to leave the free gift of eternal life that Jesus gave us, or pick it up and take it?

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Camp 101

I'm a little bit lazy and I keep putting this off, but tonight I'm finally getting my butt in gear! So, here it is, my camp experience!


Camp... Let me get the complaining out of the way so I can get to the good stuff...
Living in a dorm with a bunch of girls for a week isn’t the greatest. The bathrooms are horrible! I mean come on, how can anyone shower in a 3ft by 3ft shower??? And let me tell you, trying to shave your legs in one is even harder! Then there is the fact that there isn’t a drain in the dressing room part of the shower, (which wasn’t much bigger either than the actual shower...) so there was always a puddle of nasty, cold shower water in the floor while you try to get dressed. Not to mention the wide assortment of socks, bobby pins, pony tails, and hair that gets left in the showers, yuck! The actual rooms weren’t too bad, other than the fact that the floors could have used a mopping, and the room we were put in was the smallest one there is. Six teenage girls in one small room wasn’t the greatest idea... Oh, and the pipe that ran through the room made noise every time that people above us flushed the toilet or took a shower at odd times of the night. Speaking of night, the beds were also pretty hard and don’t even try sitting up while on the bottom bunk, I hit my head several times. And finally, I come to the food, which was just disgusting! I really think one day for lunch they fed us rubber hamburgers...
Now that you have listened to me complain, I’ll get on to what you really want to read, lol! 
I guess a good place to start would be on Monday. Let’s see here, I got up really early Monday morning to take my shower and be at the church before 7 am, which was the “scheduled” leaving time, and I think we left pretty close to the time we were supposed to.
After arriving at camp, we skipped lunch and unpacked our stuff and got settled in our rooms. This would be when I found out that I would be the counselor in the room of our girls plus one other girl from another church. This left me with mixed feelings. Stepping up into a leadership position, which if you know me at all, you know that leadership is not my thing... Anyway, the first day I struggled a bit. I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to be doing and I was trying to juggle being a camper and a counselor at the same time. So I did the only thing that I knew to do, I brought my concerns to God at Pre-Service Prayer that night (just a side note, my girls were early to Pre-Service Prayer every night, which I am quite proud of!). God’s response to my concerns was this: He told me that He gave me the power and the strength that I need to keep them in line and I needed to step up and use the authority that I have over them. He also told me that they look up to me and treasure what I have to say. This made me really happy inside. I knew that I could step up and do what I needed to do! Needless to say, the girls were in check all week and I really think I got closer to them! Oh, and I got the nickname “Mama Goose” from one of the guys Reece and Lacey became friends with because I was so protective and I corrected them all the time! Lol!
Even though, I was great at keeping the girls in line, I think I might have been a bit of a bad influence during game time... You see, I don’t like sports and sports don’t like me. So I sat out and they kinda followed my lead. Pastor Nathan didn’t like that too well, but oh well. Monday we got out of games by cleaning the confetti out of the chapel from the opening ceremonies, which was nice because we got to be in the air conditioning! 
The services were just phenomenal! The worship, the message, and the alter time were all just amazing! I have never felt so close to God in my entire life! I hadn’t realized how empty and dry I really was until I was filled back up! There are two nights that still stand out in my mind: Wednesday and Thursday night.
Wednesday night during the alter time we had a Spiritual Carwash. All of the leaders lined up on the two sides of one of the aisles and prayed for the students as they walked through. Everything that the leaders told me and prayed over me was right on track! I was amazed at the anointing on them! There were so many things that I was told, some of them I didn’t even realize I had going on. One of the leaders prayed for me and broke off the hurt from home. I have been prayed for this before and I thought I had laid it at the cross, but apparently I picked it back up again at some point. After going through about six or so leaders, I got to Pastor Nathan. I had managed not to cry until then, but at this point I knew it was inevitable. Pastor Nathan prayed over the fear that I have been holding on to for years now. He told me that I was not to live in fear because I am God’s child and God did not create fear, fear is of the devil. What is this fear that I am referring to? Well, that would be the fear of fifteen passenger vans pulling trailers. When I was younger ,about 5th Grade, I was in a terrible accident in a fifteen passenger van pulling a trailer and it’s by God’s grace that I am here today! ( If you want to know more, just ask, I’ll be happy to tell you) This fear is now gone if you were wondering, I conquered it! It no longer has control over my life! By this time tears were running down my face, not only because of the truth of the words and God working inside me, but also because His presence was so strong! Another thing Pastor Nathan prayed over me was for me to never stray from the Lord. This was a popular subject among the leaders who prayed for me. I find this quite funny because if I did ever stray from God just the tiniest bit, I would have a plenty of people (you know who you are...) dragging me back kicking and screaming! 
Thursday night was a powerful one! The alter call was for those who were called into full time ministry. The leaders were asked to stand in front of them and they were given cups of oil to anoint the students. Several of our youth were up front so I was in my seat praying for them. When the leaders were released to anoint the students God’s presence became so strong in the room that tears began to well up in my eyes. One of the things I remember most about this night is that when the leaders were finished praying for all of those who are called into full time ministry, the rest of us were called up to be anointed by our leaders. Dawn came to pray with me and anoint me with oil and I already had some oil on my forehead so when she anointed me there was a lot and it began to run down my face! The whole time she was praying for me I was trying to focus, but all I could think about was that the oil was getting awful close to my eye and that I really wanted to wipe it off because it was bugging me! LOL!
I guess my main testimony of camp was that God set me free, in more ways than one. God set me free spiritually, and he set me free from all the worries of life! It was so nice to get away from all of the stress of my life! Upon returning, I felt so light and carefree and bubbly inside! I felt so close to God. I wish that there was a way that I could have bottled that feeling I had to give it to people so they could feel what it is like to be close to God!
That feeling may be almost gone now, but I am working on getting it back! For the past two Wednesday nights, Pastor Nathan has been doing a series called “The Pour”. It is based on John 7:38 which says this, Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.” In order for us to be poured into, we have to let the living water pour from within us. We do this by working in the gift God has given us and when we work in our gift we get that feeling again! That gift for me is writing, and that’s why I started this blog (that and Pastor Nathan has been bugging me for two years now...)


I’ll end with this. Camp can either be the best experience of your life or your worst. It is what you make it. You can choose to make it great and let God do great things in your life, or you can choose to close yourself off from God and just worry about the social aspect of camp. For me, the week I spent at Lake Maurer this summer was probably the best time I have ever had and I would never trade the memories from that week for anything!